Before A Move

Isn’t it interesting how you don’t realize all of the change you’ve experienced until you psychically leave a place you’ve called home?

This place has given me the space to change in ways I never thought were possible.

It forced me to take responsibility for my life.

It forced me to face uncomfortable parts of myself that I never thought I would be able to confront.

It showed me the darkest parts of myself that were just waiting to be seen.

I spent a lot of time here investigating wounded parts of myself.

I didn’t choose to, but I had no other choice.

They presented themself to me. And I couldn’t ignore them.

Habits, patterns, cycles that I had been unconsciously living through presented themself to me, daily.

It was fucking painful for a while.

Sometimes it felt like I was in an spaceless vacuum.

Other times I felt like I was clearing out parts of me that needed to be cleared.

I was shown that when things on the external physical plane are all clean and tidy, the inner parts of you start to speak.

They start to speak so loud that they become the only thing you can hear.

Noticing these parts of me and actually choosing to make peace with them allowed me to break so many bad habits that I had be under the spell of for years.

But most importantly, I chose to really look at the limiting beliefs that I had formed & gathered throughout my life and reflected on how they had gotten me to this exact place.

I knew that if I wanted to continue to become a better person, I had to figure out what was keeping me from moving on.

There were some days were I really had no hope.

But now I look back on those moments of struggle and even though they fucking sucked to go through, I can finally sense the clarity.

My life magically started to get better.

I started to feel lighter.

Because for once in my life I decided to let myself feel through all of that built up energy instead of pushing it away.

I had to feel through all of that in order to come out on the other side.

And I now know that in order to move forward, you must work through what is holding you in place. There’s no way you can get through something unless you quite literally move through it.

And now I feel free as a fucking bird.

Nowhere to go.

Nowhere to be.

Nothing but absolute endless opportunity.

"Just because you don’t know where you’re going, doesn’t mean you can’t start where you’re at"