This guy I met along my journey now told me this tonight-
“It’s hard when you travel a lot of places, because you are constantly making these amazing connections with people who you probably won’t ever see again. It’s like you connect with a person on such a deep level and spend all of this time with them, and then one day you have to say goodbye and that’s it.”
I felt this to my core.
It brought up so many feelings buried within me.
And then I thought about you.
I thought about all of the people I have met and continue to meet in my life that have made an everlasting impact on me.
Each one of them flashed through my mind.
All of the people who have made me feel alive inside.
All of the people who, even though in that moment I had no idea, were contributing to this part of me that is continuously growing and changing and evolving on this never ending journey of becoming the truest version of me I can be.
This initiated an epiphany within me.
I’m thinking about this experience that I have found myself in right now.
Moving to an island to work for someone I did not know the whole story about.
For these past few days, since I got here, I have been so confused. Startled. Unsure of it all.
And as the plans of me leaving something that feels like it never even started begin to set in, I am seeing a different perspective of it all now.
And then this random song comes on my shuffle called ‘beach house’. The universe reminding me that I am exactly where I need to be.
I’m realizing that, even though things worked out completely different than they had initially presented themself to me, that I still wanted this on a deeper level.
I dreamt of living on the coast for years, surrounded by the energy of the abundant ocean life.
Hearing the background sound of waves crashing on the rocks.
Letting the salt water seep deep into the depths of my bones and clear me out.
I forgot how bad I wanted this, and then all of the sudden I got it.
It’s happening right now before my very eyes.
Life never stops surprising me.
I took a chance and it brought me here.
And although it has not been easy, I’m realizing that I have a choice to make.
I can either choose to ruminate on how things went awry, or I can choose to appreciate the beauty that I have absorbed while being here.
I can choose to let myself appreciate the incredible strength I have rediscovered in myself for doing this and doing me and not giving up on myself.
I can continue to affirm to myself:
Things are not happening the way you think they should, because they are happening the way they need to.
I think one of the hardest things about change for me, is learning how to live life without something that you don’t want to let go of.
People, situations, and places come and go.
Just like time.
There’s no way to stop it.
There’s no way to prevent change from happening.
It’s part of life.
And the better we can begin to understand and accept inevitable change, the more present we will become in each and every living moment of our lives.
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