I had a huge emotional breakdown this afternoon.
It all started this morning when I was driving.
I parked my car, ran an errand, got back in my car- and it wouldn’t shift out of park.
I froze.
I sat there and just starred out the window for a while.
Started googling things.
I even ended up finding a temporary solution, but that one little thing caused me to loose it and hit the point of overwhelm.
This was my last internal straw.
I felt like i was going to explode.
How could one little inconvenience cause such a reaction?
All I knew in that moment was that I just wanted to go home and cry.
So thats exactly what I did.
And after crying for some time- releasing all of the thoughts, worries, and fears inside of me, letting myself wallow in self pity and distraught..I gave up.
I gave up trying to think and figure everything out that I had been trying to figure out these past few months.
Where I’m going to live next.
How I’m going to sell all my stuff.
When I’ll hear back from the people I’ve been waiting to hear back from.
Whether or not things were really going to work out.
I let myself feel through it all.
And then it dawned upon me that everything was going to ok.
(P.S., crying is a tremendously beneficial was to release built up energy. It allows us to cleanse ourselves internally.)
So if you ever just feel like crying, please just let yourself do it.
Don't hold it back.
Your body is trying to process things for you.
Let it.
As humans, we are constantly picking up on, and absorbing, the energy we come in contact with in our environment.
When we pick up on things and they affect us, we hold onto them.
They mentally pop up in our heads and physically show up in our vibrational fields, until they are released from us.
All that energy that had built up in me from all of those feelings I had dismissed for so long, it was ready to be released from me.
My car issue was just the point of overflow, which caused me to purge everything else I had been holding onto.
The lesson here is this:
If you don’t acknowledge and process your emotions, they will not go anywhere.
They will stay with you UNTIL you either choose to work through them or are triggered enough to cause them to work through you anyways(i.e. hysterically crying).
And shortly after this emotional breakdown I realized that no matter what emotions you experience, YOU will always still be there underneath it all.
Feelings are temporary.
Emotions are temporary.
You are just a human having an experience, doing your best to live through it all.
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